Mr Half.

Im gonna talk about my relationship in this one.. I guarantee you a lot of you can relate to what im about to say, if you do,i wonder if you feel the exact same way. We have all went for that boy that makes you smile like you cannot even believe, but yet he hurts you more than you'd imagine he would. A boy will sit there and tell you they love you, but yet they'll continuously make you cry. I dont think boys understand that when a girl cares about a guy that every little thing they do affects us in a way too. Have you ever been told and asked this;; You deserve soo much better than that.. why are you still with him?- Well, i have been asked that a millioooon times! Most people who do put up with a ton of shit they shouldnt probably have the same reaction as me. You dont know how to explain it. You've just never had that happy or comfortable feeling with anyone but that guy, am i right? Sometime i think those are feelings that really keep me hanging on. I like a challenge too and every girl likes to fix a guy and be able to say i helped him through things, and damn well i have helped mine through a lot. I've come a long way and i dont feel that giving up now after everything is worth it. I want boy to one day be completely worth it all. I want to be able to be happy all the time and say that i actually am in love with someone. Before i can love him though, i first have to learn to love myself. All i can say is.. that boy means the world to me, and i wouldnt trade him for anyone, anyday.

what will i be?

To those of you who have pushed me, thank you without you I wouldn't have fallen. To those of you who laughed at me, thank you- without you I wouldn't have cried. To those of you who just couldn't love me, thank you- without you I wouldn't have known real love. To those of you who hurt my feelings, thank you without you I wouldn't have felt them. To those of you who left me lonely, thank you without you I wouldn't have discovered myself, but it is to those of you who thought I couldn't do it it is to you I thank the most because, without you I wouldn't have tried.

rocky me

Forgiveness is so hard for me, I can't forgive myself and I can't forgive you either.I can be really selfish, and I hate it about myself.
Once someone hurts me, I stop caring and for some reason think that's enough justification to do worse by them.
There always seems to be something on my mind, my mind doesn't ever shut down.
I can't ever let things be, I always read too into things. I don't think anyone can do worse by me, I'm my own worst enemy.
I don't even realize so much of the things I do. I have some ridiculous mood swings, they can get really bad. I get into these awful emotional ruts, and they are the absolute worst.